Monday, August 20, 2012

Is It Really Worth It?


  A shockwave has hit the film community yesterday. Tony Scott(director of some of my favorite films including Top Gun and Man on Fire)committed suicide yesterday. I didn’t know Tony personally but when I heard the news I felt a great sadness and a sense of loss. It has made me reflect on why I continue to pursue my career of choice.
  This is definitely not an easy field to be in. It’s an ever-evolving world. What may have brought you success in one instance can bring you ruin in the next. Even success can ring hollow over time. You’re constantly questioning yourself and your self worth. We’ve seen how some deal with this with drug and alcohol addiction. It’s really not for the faint of heart and yet why do I still proceed when I can see what ruin may befall me.
  Seeing as how even perceived success may not be enough how can I prevent myself from following the same path? None of these questions have an easy solution. As I traverse on this journey I’ve found that being around like-minded individuals helps. I find myself constantly being inspired and inspiring my peers. Just reaching out and talking helps puts things in perspective. It may seem like a small thing but the effect is huge. Through this I am able to trudge along my chosen path. 
  The joy I get from seeing a project go from idea to audiences watching the finish project is immense. For every completed success there are at least 10 that never got to reach that point. As I stated before it’s not for the faint of heart. Just being able to break into the industry is a trying experience. Being able to maintain once you’re in is even more difficult. 
  Everyday I have these things processing in my mind and yet you’ll never be able to tell for the smile on my face. In the end I’ve ultimately decided that this is my dream and I’m going to pursue it until the end. R.I.P. Tony Scott

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